Please... don't wait for me.

She: "Yesterday I sent an SMS to you but you didn't replied."

I: "Is it? Well I can reply now. What was the message?"

She: "It was a question, what you expect from me and you need to choose from options."

I : "Oh!!! that one, OK I'll answer but you need to answer first. What you expect from me?"

She: "A long relationship and friendly love (Smiling). Now you tell me."

I : Well.. that's simple, I choose "Marry me".

She: "Oh My God, Is it?"

I : "Yup!!!"

She: "Come on.. Tell me seriously."

I: "Do you really think I am kidding. I am serious and see it'll fulfill both of our expectation. Its a long relationship and I'll be loving you forever."

She: "No, you are still not serious."

I: "Listen.. it's been 5 years and I still want to marry you. How much serious it can be? "

She: "That's what? It's been 5 years and you are still waiting for me. Please don't wait for me."

I: "Will you answer a question?"

She: "Yes."

I: "Do you think, I am not suitable for you. If this is the case just tell me I won't feel bad. In fact it motivate me to do much better in life."

She: "No, In fact I am not suitable for you."

I : "Why... Why you think so?"

She: "I am not a good girl."

I: "Well !!! I am not a good boy either."

She: "But still better than me."

I: "Hey!!! Don't start over this. A relationship is where two imperfect person makes a perfect life. And I feel we can make a perfect life."

She: "I know you'll keep any girl happy and someday you'll find a much better and beautiful girl.  But I am not that girl."

I: "I am never gonna find someone like you because you are the only one."

She: "Look in your office, I heard there are lots of beautiful girls in your company."

I: "But how can someone else take the place that is not vacant?"

She: "That's what I am telling you, Make that space."

I: "Then why you expect a long relationship from me?"

She: "Because I need someone, I can trust. A shoulder where I can cry when I am sad. A friend who'll always be with me."

I: "I have a better idea, Just be with me and I'll never let you cry."

She: "Please... don't wait for me."

And she again left me puzzled.

Jab We Met 2 (JWM2)

Previously on Jab We Met (JWM)….
I met a girl named Riya in a journey, who was about to jump from the train. Now I am at home doing the best thing I can do i.e., sleeping and it happened, my cell started ringing. Anyhow I dared to pick up the phone, the name Riya was flashing on it. That’s why I hate girls they can’t see u happy. It was 7 O’clock.

http://raxblogging.blogspot.in/2009/06/jab-we-met-1.html

I: "(clearing my throat) Yes!!"

Riya: "Hiiiiiii"

I can’t understand why these girls get so excited while saying “Hi”.

Riya: "Do you know what happened today?"

I: "How could I know, my day have just started."

Riya: "OK, I’ll tell you. He just called me."

I: "Whom, you are talking about?"

Riya: “Alok”, I have told you about him yesterday.

I: "Oh... yes, your boyfriend. So what did he say?"

Riya: "Well he was very sad and apologizing for his behavior."

I: "Hey, that’s very good, you guys are together again."

Riya: "Actually, now I m not feeling like loving him anymore."

I: "What? But you were going to suicide for him. I thought you loved him so much."

Riya: "Yes I do, but yesterday night I thought about it and I felt if he can leave me once he can do it again."

I: "So, what you told him?"

Riya: "I told him that it couldn’t remain same. We can now remain only friend.
Ok I’ll call you later mom is shouting."

And she cut the phone. I thought I was still dreaming, why she called me and told me all these things? What I have to do with all these crap? Well I had been woken up so I thought to finish up all my morning business.

After that she started messaging me and miss calls too. One thing about girls is that they never call you until they need; at the same time they keep on giving you miss calls until you call.

One day she called me and said, “Hey I am coming to your city this Sunday. Tell me where we can meet?”

I: “Meet? Are you serious? This is a small township, full of Uncles and guys who know me. What they’ll think?”

Riya: “Oh!!! Come on... don’t be such a jerk. Nothing will happen; I’ll be there with you.”

I: “That’s the problem, you’ll be there.”

Riya: “OK fine, you don’t wanna meet me then that’s it. You are such a coward.”

Coward, how can I bear such insult?

I: “Ok we’ll meet. Time and Place I’ll tell on Sunday morning. Happy??”

Riya: “Thanks a lot (laughing)”

Finally Sunday came sooner than I expected. We planned to meet at the Coffee House as I was sure no uncles would come there and guys I can take care off. But when everything is right there must be something wrong.

As soon as we ordered for coffee I saw a familiar face or should I say many familiar faces. It was Mishra Uncle’s daughter Birthday party and now I was trying to hide behind Riya and praying nobody saw me.

We finished our coffee in hurry and walked towards the stairs. I came down halfway on stairs and I saw “Papa”.

Riya looked at me and said, “Namaste Uncle.”

Papa looked at me and said “Hello” to her. He didn’t ask anything that time but by
his look I can say “I am Gone” and we left.

I: “See now what happened? I don’t know what I’ll say if he asks about you.”

Riya: “Why are you so tensed as if I am your girlfriend and he caught you red handed. Tell him I am your friend”

Girlfriend and Friend, see how much difference a girl can make.
Something pinch me inside, Was it that her telling she's not my girlfriend? Do I want her to be my girlfriend? I don't know but what if she really is?

In a moment hundreds of thoughts crossed my mind.

Riya: "Hey!!! What are you thinking?"

I: “(Startled) Hmm... Nothing. You won’t understand my situation. Anyways I’ll take care of it (Can I?)”.

Then we left for the Lake park of our city, there were three reasons for that:

first it was a quite place to walk around second its out of city and it's near bus stand I don't need to come all the way to drop her ;)

Riya: "Hey!!! I am sorry."

I: "Sorry? For what?"

Riya: "To put you in trouble."

I: "Ohh.. forget it, in fact I feel it exciting. You made my boring Sunday into an adventurous one."

Riya: "Is it? So when are we meeting again?"

I: "Whaaat?"

Riya: "Oh.. don't worry I was just kidding. But really you made my day. It was really nice to meet you in person. Thanks a lot."

I: "O Come on.. I don't like people saying thanks to me. That's what friends do, they care, spend time, make you happy. There is no place for thanks and all."

Riya: "As you say. Well now its time, I should leave now otherwise it'll be too late to reach home."

I: "Ok.. Riya. I wish will see you soon."

Riya: "Sure."

And she left for her city leaving me thinking where this friendship can go?

When I reached home, Mom and Dad were waiting for me as I expected.....


(to be continued....)

A Walk to Remember

I was at the bus stop,waiting for her. I was really happy and out of world, first time we were going out for a movie. In last 2 years we met many times but it was the first time it was only me and her.

People were coming to me asking direction but where is she? We're not late in fact I came early or very early.

Then she called and I was thinking "Oh..God, please don't cancel the Date."
Date, is it really a Date? Hell who cares, for me its a Date ;).

I received the call, "Hey where are you?"

"At the stop, where are you?"

"Me too at the stop."

Then I saw her "As beautiful as ever".

And we went for the movie.
After movie she said,"Movie was not that good."

Me: "Yeah!!! (As if I care)."
For me being with her is the only thing that matters.

Me: "Don't you feel it was kind of our story"

She: "Yeah, me too thinking the same."

She: "So what's your plan now?"

Me: "I don't have anything to do, Let's have a walk if you are free".

She: "Sure"
We sat outside the mall.

She: "There are so many people here, That's why I don't like malls so much crowd."

Me: "What are you talking? that's why we come to Malls, look at those girls."

She: "You all are same."

Me: "Well that's how we should be."

She: "OK, tell me the most beautiful girl here other than me?"

She knew what I'll say but then I said,"See that girl in pink top"

That was an African girl, really dark.

She: "Oh my God that's your choice."

Me: "Well you know my choice better."

She: "Let's walk"

She: "Why you are so quiet?"

Me: "Just don't want to spoil the moment"

She: "You know when ever I walk, I always fall. My friends always make fun of me whenever I walk with them I guaranteed fall. I don't know why? Today first time I walked that long and I didn't fall."

Me: "Because Today you are with me. Just walk with me and I'll make sure you'll never fall."

She: "You know what? We rarely meet, we rarely talk and there is nothing between us, but still there are people who believe there is something between us. No matter how much I tell them, they don't believe me ?"

It hurts to listen those words but I was happy thinking, still there are people who think of we two together. Oh God!!! where are these people? I love them...

Me: "(Surprisingly) Is it?"

What else I can say.. :(

Me: "You know I still Love you"

She: "Yes, I know and that's why we don't often meet or talk. Beacuse I don't want it to end like 3 years ago."

Me: "So what do you think? Is this what you want?"

She: "It is not what I think or What I want? It's about what I chose. There are lots of things that depends upon our choices. And I wish may be someday we both will be happy with this choice."

Me: "Anyways Happy Promise day"

She: "No, not like that you have to promise me something"

Me: "OK then I promise, I'll always keep my promise. Now it's your turn"

She: "I also promise you the same."

Me: "That's cheating. Promise me something else".

She: "Well then I promise....."

"DADDY MUJHSE BOLA TU GALTI HAI MERI...TUJHPE ZINDGANI GUILTY HAI MERI...SABUN KI SHAKAL ME, BETA TU TO NIKLA KEWAL JHAAG.. BHAAG... "

Hell what is this?
That's my alarm. Why? Why? It rang at the wrong time. I want to listen what she said?
But the loss was done, the dream is broken..

Anyways I should hurry now or I am gonna miss our morning status call at office.

Kash Tujhe Malum Ye Hota...

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Ashk bina rone ka matlab,
Khwabon me tujhse milne ko,
Neend bina sone ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Patjhad ke sawan ka matlab,
Pyasi is banjar zameen se,
Jaate us badal ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Bikhre un khawabon ka matlab,
Manzil ko pakar ke bhi,
Chhuti un raahon ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Lambi un raaton ka matlab,
Mauke dar maukon par hoti,
Choti un baaton ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
tute us taare ka matlab,
Hasti aankon se teri wo,
Bahte us kaazal ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Ghut ti un saanson ka matlab,
Yaadon ki aagosh me teri,
Jalti un baahon ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Bin tere jeene ka matlab,
Haath liye har ek jaam ko,
Pyaas bina peene ka matlab.

Kash tujhe malum ye hota,
Is dard bhari pukar ka matlab,
Kash Mujhe malum ye hota,
Is beech khadi deewar ka matlab.

When Silence hurts more...

He: "Hey!!! Hi, I am really surprised, you called after these many years."

She: "Me too, so glad to hear your voice."

He: "Is everything OK?"

She: "Why are you asking this question?"

He: "You called after such a long time."

She: "Well.. you have not even called."

He: "I was afraid."

She: "Afraid of what?"

He: "Getting hurt again."

She: "Hmmm.."

He: "Why didn't you called me?"

She: "Me too was afraid."

He: "(Laughing..) Of getting hurt?"

She: "No, of hurting you again."


Silence..

He: "So how's life going?"

She: "Yeah!!! everything is going fine."

He: "That's good."

She: "So, how's yours?

He: "Me too, doing good."


He: "So what made you to call me?"

She: "Because I just can't take it any more. I just can't bear your silence, your
stanger like behaviour. Why are you pretending like you don't know me?"

He: "What else you expect me to do?"

She: "If you are angry on me. Scold me, abuse me or if you want, beat me."

He: "You know I can't do any of them."

She: "Why?"

He: "You know it better."


She: "You know I read all your blogs."

He: "Oh.. did you like them?"

She: "No, I felt them."



She: "Why did you wrote all these blogs?"

He: "May be because I don't have anyone to talk with."

She: "You don't share anything sad with others. Its your old habit. Look at me I used to share everything with you whether its happiness or sad. You should be like that."

He: "Yes, but last time you missed to share one important thing."

She: "Is it? What?"

He: "That you are going away from my life."


She: "Why are you so quite?"

He: "Just don't have anything to talk."

She: "And I was thinking you would have lots of complains."

He: "No, not at all, in fact I am very thankful to you. You have tought me so many things, you gave me chance to improve myself. You made me understand "why one shouldn't expect anything from anyone as expectations always hurt". You have made me lot more stronger than before."

She: "So you are not angry at me?"

He: "Positively"

She: "Then why are you still talking so formaly with me?"

He: "Because it helps me to remain tough."


She: "Can't we become friends like before?"

He: "Like before I can't say, but yes we can have a new start."


.

Love Actually

"So have you ever been in love", he asked me
"Yes, once I have been in love", I replied.
"So how is your girlfriend?"
"Don't know, we are not together now."
"Oh!!! So how much you cried when she left"
"I haven't cried."
"Then it was not love, it's just a crush."
So in this way, my love was declared as a Crush because I never cried.
Now I am thinking, "Why tears are so important in love? Why pain and love are synonyms? Why people don't believe in your love only because you never cried?

I thought loving someone mean giving all the happiness you can to the one you love, even though they are happy without you. Why one should cry because she/he is not with them? In spite we can be happy, watching smile on their face.

Loving someone not always means to be with them in person, it also means a thought in their mind that "Yes, I am with you no matter whatever happen. Whenever you need me I'll be there." Isn't this enough to say you are still special for me.

There are people around who talks of many stages like Crush, Infatuation sometimes Committed and then Love. Seriously I can't understand these stages, either you love someone or not. These stages are just excuses for not being together.

Now it was my turn to ask question:
"Have you ever been in Love?"
"Well I have dated 7-8 girls and had two serious girlfriends"

And I thought "Oh!!! GOD, two more terms "Date" and "Serious Girlfriend".

Now what a Date is? If you like someone, you want to spend some time with them. That people call a Date. Then where is the crush stage? "If you don't have Crush on someone, why are you going on date with them?
So where do I put it in the hierarchy is it after Crush or before Crush?

And what is this "Serious Girlfriend" thing and if it is serious, why it is two? Oh!!! These things are looking funny to me. Why we are making things so complicated?

I have seen people saying she/he is my girlfriend/boyfriend. But I haven't heard them saying "Yes, she is the girl I love." I don't know why guys/girls are so afraid of accepting that they are in love with someone. Then what are these boyfriend/girlfriend things? When you start calling someone boyfriend or girlfriend, not a friend?

And as a matter of fact "Nobody remembers a successful love story". For example stories of Laila-Majnu, Heer-Ranjha, Romeo-Juliet we talk about. And when we talk about romantic movies, we talk about Walk to remember, the Notebook etc. See, nobody like successful love story.

I have so many questions and I know there are many people around who can give me answers for all these questions. But maybe I don't want answer for all these question? May be I don't want so many answers?

But I want answer for only one question "What is Love Actually?"

 

 

Marriage Ceremony of IT Professional

Before I invite you all to the marriage ceremony of an IT Professional, let me tell you some culture and rules we follow at any software company. As many of you may know that in such office we all are provided with Access Cards,that are required to cross any door or to enter any Bay. We develop a habit of paying all our bills online or with Debit/Credit card. at many places you need to enter your Enterprise ID and Password. And one more thing we guys get meal coupons (Sudexos etc.).

Now lets come to the marriage:
Initially the mother mails to her son telling that the bench period of bachelorhood is now over and he is Hardlocked to a new project called marriage. Hardlock, yeh!!! this the terminology we use. And he need to report the supervisor (Father) as soon as possible (ASAP). Our software engineer raise a request to get roll off but of no use. As nothing can be done he agrees for the marriage.

Now a meeting is arranged for the boy and the girl. The boy asks so many questions to the girl like what are her area of specialization? If she had any previous experience? What are the projects she has already worked? And the girl replies innocently that she is a fresher. Anyhow the marriage gets fixed and now KT (knowledge transfer) sessions are organized by the boy's married friends and they share some important information with him.

Now preparation for marriage starts. Cabs are booked for the "Barat". Girl and Boy mails their friends with the subject line as "Action Required:Need to attend the marriage" and with high priority. And finally the day comes. All the friend of boys have joined the "Barat". They dance in front of groom's car and fly Sudexo Coupons in spite of money. At the girl's end a responsible person sits at the door with a card swapping machine, collection gift from the guests and checking their Id card. A guest come and offer him his debit card and says Rs 1001/- or Rs 501/- etc.

The boy comes and sits at the "Mandap"(Wedding Place). All the girl's friend surround him and they hide the access card of the girl's room, this time no shoes. After the marriage the groom finds the Access Card is missing. The girls demand for money in lieu of the Access card and the Groom hands over his debit card to them.

Now the Groom enters the bride's room as he sits near her she asks for password and he gets access, after that... its confidential. Next morning they get a news that they are going Onsite for Honeymoon.

And they live happily ever after unless some bug comes in their life.